Having introduced today’s matter, let me say that today’s post is not for everyone. Today’s post is for people like me; softhearted, ever-loving people like me.
I learnt early in life to make excuses for people. “Ah! Joyce couldn’t lend me that money because she’s saving to buy hair. Favour couldn’t visit while I was sick because he had a long day…” This helped me pretend that all was well in my world. The problem was, when I really needed people, it was acquaintances and people I barely knew that would come through for me. Maybe I am a horrible friend but I know it was because I had not required the people I loved to do right by me; because I always understood. You see, the problem with painting over cracks in a wall is that one day that wall will collapse, because instead of fixing the wall, you only fixed it’s appearance.
Aren’t you tired, darling? Aren’t you tired of pretending to be okay with “it”? Aren’t you tired of feeling sick to your stomach every time you say “it’s no big deal”? Aren’t you tired of making excuses for people who never try to explain? You are!
You are tired and you need to make a change today! Today you’ll send a text message to your dad, letting him know that you feel fatherless. Today, you’ll tell that person who takes you for granted that it needs to stop. Today you’ll call them out every time until they understand that it shouldn’t always be your responsibility to understand; until they learn to take responsibility for letting you down.
You’ll do it today because if you don’t, you’ll do it tomorrow or the day after or whenever it is that you’ll implode, because you will! Who is still hurt in the end? Is it not you, darling?