A couple of weeks back, I was doing some deep thinking as I’m wont to do when my phone is out battery. I was thinking of the hustle and bustle of life and I asked myself why I run, why I want the things I want and why I do the things I do. It led me to deeper thinking. And so today I put the question to you. Why do you run?
Why did you struggle so much to get into the University? Why do you do all the the things you do to succeed? How many times do we ask ourselves the question “why”? We always want to know how we can make it, where “it” is happening and what we should do to get “it”, but do we really want to know why? Why do you want to be a doctor? Is it because you’re smart and doctors have prestige? Is it because your parents feel the need for a doctor in the family?
Are you doing it because your friends have been all up in your business, lovingly nudging you in that direction because they say it suits you (even if you don’t like it)?
Are you doing it just because you can?
Are you doing it because all your friends are?
Is it because it’s profitable?
…because you can’t imagine yourself doing anything else happily?
I used to have a deep fear of failure. I would say to myself that so much has been given to me and so much is expected and I owed it to my family to not be a loser, to not be mediocre. But as I grew (you see, I became a year older this month), I realized that it’s not really about my family. Yes, it’s great to make your family proud but the more I tried to think of the best way to achieve this the harder it seemed. My mother constantly worried about me.
It took a while for me to realise that the fear of the future, of pleasing everyone is a great barrier to success. I made up my mind late last year about the things I wanted for “myself”. Emphasis on myself! Some days these ideas seem too difficult to even think of, but I don’t feel fear. I’m convinced in my spirit that it is who I am and no matter what happens in the future, I know I’ll achieve my dreams.
Everyday I try to answer the “why” of my dreams. I say its because they call out to me, Because even thinking of them makes me happy, because I know who I am on the inside.
If you haven’t asked yourself already, please do. And if your answer is not satisfactory, then maybe you should have a rethink. Peace of mind and contentment are priceless.